i'm so excited that there are shivers down my spine! i'm having my first audit! happy happy joy joy! NOT! absolutely shitting my pants now (not to mention i just taken a crap in toilet with the most god forsaken flushing system.)

spent the ENTIRE day at work filing 6 months worth of engine logs, deck logs, shipboard standard record forms, shipboard ad hoc record forms. (now waiting for our colleague from sister company to come down and AUDIT us). having this sinking feeling we'll be getting heaps of NCs (non-conformity) to last us till about let's see.... next year.. had thot that we have been doing a good job with filing and updating our database. apparently... upstairs is better. but then again i shall reiterate that we have 50 vessels! they have like 8 or 12 or something.. in any case.. (altho i know it's not a good excuse.. an excuse is one nevertheless) we have more vessels to keep track of! and it's not like i didn't want to do 6 months of filing... it's cos some pple think that by keeping all these logs/records under their table... it will slowly grow into cash. you know.. 铁也能磨成针 or was it 石头? i think it's the latter. okie i shan't bitch about old pple cos i have bitched about them enough to various pple who were willing to listen (the first time round) and cos of karma.. i don't want my kid to send me to old folks' home!!!

for the first time since the ISPS course.. i have not seen the conference room in such organised chaos. our colleague (from the same dept) just HAD to come in and say "wah! the room is damn neat lah" talk about rubbing salt in wounds *rub rub rub* surely! might as well take a knife and stab us a couple of times then take salt plus all things sour and give us a 'milk bath' neh neh! anyways... chinaboy and i were going mad.. talking about MAO and 黑社会... i didn't know that zhou xing chi was 'black society' one loh.. and u know that report a few years back where the actress carina lau (tony leung's 'gf') got her naked pics posted on the newspapers? according to chinaboy (no idea where he gets all this info from) she was actually raped by 2 yakuzas. (to think we all thot 黑社会 was so righteous and glam when we were watching 'gu wak zai' - and don't deny.. surely u girls were drooling over chen hao nam or u guys wishing you cld be THAT cool with long hair covering half ur face and scrawny like anything....)

it's acutally quite appalling to hear about the rape esp when chinaboy said that she was tied up and stuff. (dunno how he got his hands of the video *shurgs*) and then realising she can't really say anything about, can't seek justice.. cos they'd prob just kill her. woooo suddenly HK is such a scary place.

onto other less severe topic - have u ever felt that after a bit shit (after not shitting for like a couple of days), there is like less burden? not sure if i'm bringing across this proper.. but like before that BIG SHIT - u'd be walking around feeling very burden, like there's this 负担 but u can't seem to place where it's stemming from?! and then after the BIG SHIT, you realise that 'oh yah! it's cos i haven't shitted and the shit is like clogging up my insides.. making my body think that there is something wrong wit h the world around me and i dunno what it is' - anyways my point is that it always feels damn good after a big shit.. ahhaha esp after gek-ing on the toilet bowl for quite a while. hahahhahahahah (i sense many disgusted pple after reading this...) i seem to have written something about gek sai before but can't find it.. well if u're interested and willing to scroll thru 2 years of rubbish and nonsense.. go ahead.. be my guest... if not.. then i also can't do anything can i?!